I used to write a lot... maybe not on here... but I used to write and draw... mostly when I was hurt, or down, or feeling alone in life. Just to pass the time, the pain, etc.. However, most of the time I'd just write, stories, and poems, and quotes.. I don't do that anymore, every once in a while I'll find a picture that attracts me, and I will want to draw it... but I hardly finish it because I don't have the same push to finish it..
I have someone I love with all of my heart, that never really hurts me. He makes me so happy by allowing me to be a part of his life. I'm constantly afraid that I will loose him and be forever hopeless.
Without hope, many things come to a complete halt, failure. Many people use the term hopeless lightly. This is not the case.
I finished my second semester in college, it was hard, but I always had someone to push me to do better, to try harder and most of the time it was the man that I love.
I am going into my third semester now, and I doubt that it will be any easier. There are a lot of heavy thoughts on my mind, but not about what I am going to do... About what he is going to do. I can be whatever he needs me to be, but I always want him in my life. Til the day I die.
I don't draw or write anymore, because while I am sad for some people. I am not sad anymore.. I am not all the way happy either, there are many challenges that I need to overcome.. I have no experiences to really write about.
I see my sweet, love almost everyday and I must leave him everyday.
I used to go to school almost everyday, but now it will only be two days a week.
I do homework everyday.
And I go to work almost everyday.
That is my life right now, and it is tight.
I don't have room for much more than that.
I still have a curfew.
Not making much more than minimum wage.
Still living with my parents.
I know it won't always be so boring,
That one day I really will be a nurse.
I will save people on a daily bases,
I will see people die.
I will get married and have a kid.. maybe 2.
And eventually I will retire,
and I will die.
But for now, this is my life, and not only have I accepted that, but I kinda like it.
