Life is so hard to live,
And to forget,
Why can't it be as simple as this?
We all love,
And make no one cry,
We watch and learn not to be mad,
The grass is greener on the other side,
But death is darker than the midnight sky,
You always act like it’s a breeze,
The way you walk,
The way you talk,
The way you tell me it's all OK,
You never knew it hurt so much,
I want you to know I'm always here,
That I'll always care,
You run away from all your fears,
You try so hard not to care,
I miss you so much,
Please don't leave me here in the past,
Take me with you,
I still need you to hold me near,
I will try my best to help you succeed,
But I can't help you,
If you don't help me,
My body will soon burst out into insanity,
But not before first I give you my heart,
Soul,
Everything,
Including my life,
You can have it all,
I'll never regret the way I felt,
When I first saw you,
Just standing there,
You were so innocent,
Faithful,
Young,
You've changed so much now,
Years make you older,
No longer innocent,
And without any faith,
You ignore me each day,
But I'm still here... still caring,
Trying to engage you in a conversation,
Not verbal,
But emotional,
I look in your eyes,
They aren't how I remembered them,
The blue crystals are fading,
My face turns red,
My eyes tear up,
I try again but I can't look up,
Something’s wrong,
You won't look at me,
I can’t tell,
Are you falling in love again?
Or just running away like you've been?
I wish I knew... so confused,
I don't know what to do,
I'm right beside you,
But you don't see me here,
You just look right through me,
Am I glass to you?
I feel like a ghost,
Flying around,
Not sure where to go,
You don't feel me,
I touch you softly on your arm... brush your side,
Why can't you feel me?
You can't do this to me,
Not again,
You're tearing me apart,
Piece by Piece,
You're destined to break me down,
I fall to the ground,
At least once a day,
I bow my head and I start to pray,
I pray for you and only you,
I don't care about me,
Anyone else,
Anything else,
Just you,
You and your life,
Because that is my life,
And how you fall,
With a roof to jump off of,
You don't try,
Neither do I,
You lead me on,
Then you snap the line,
You turn my soul,
Then let it drop,
You take my life,
Then snap it apart,
You take my love,
And turn it to hate,
I don't understand,
And I don't really care,
I just....
I want you here.
I'm tired of being strong,
Tired of being weak,
Wearing smiles during the day,
Crying during the night,
I've had enough of the confusion,
Enough of the pain,
I solemnly swear,
I'll never be the same,
I'll stop worrying,
I'll stop caring,
I'll leave the past,
And begin the future,
I might have to tear down some walls,
But I've already shed the tears,
So it'll all be OK,
Well...
Maybe,
Everything is so hard to forget,
Why can't I forget?
Is something wrong with me?
I don't know how to make it all stop,
How can I make it go away?
Now?
After you've torn me apart?
Just pieces of who I was,
I knew this was our destiny,
But I didn't know it'd be so hard,
This life,
It takes us,
Along odd paths,
But how could I know,
It'd curve so fast?
I mean this has never happened,
Not to me,
Not to you,
It's our secret,
Yet everyone's guessed it,
They say everyday,
Like they know our lives,
That we're so perfect,
But they don't know the pain behind our eyes,
More than friends just isn't right now,
I still love you,
I've just grown awkward around you,
We've been faking too long,
And I can't believe I'm saying this,
But I don't feel the same,
I know it was never real to you,
But to me it was,
But now you're pushing it away,
And coming closer to me,
And I don't understand I really don't,
You'll always be my friend,
Always calm me down,
And I just...
I want you here.
I don't understand this feeling,
It's a pain that can't be filled,
A hope lost,
But not forgotten,
I can't wash away the feeling,
Stained with blood,
Unconcealing,
Stabbed in the back,
With a rusty blade,
Can't hide under a freakin' shade,
Shadows following me,
Lightening strikes,
Night's darkness,
Can't match my heart,
Black as coal,
And cold as ice,
Can't go back
To what I was before,
I am strong,
Bold,
And courageous,
I will not be diminished,
You are my nemesis,
You will be defeated,
I'd like to see you try,
To find someone as individual as I,
I dare you to cry,
I dare you to buy some time,
Pulling your weight,
Through this world's dark sky,
I hope you're where you want to be,
'Cuz you're not here... with me.
Dude,
I'm not gonna lie,
We haven't spoken all year,
And I'm not even close to dying inside,
All's been well,
I've been holding my head up high,
I kinda miss you,
I kinda fall,
But I haven't lost it all,
I'd like to stay in touch,
But I guess that's a little too much,
So I guess this is the end... You standing there,
And I, here.
Hope it all works out for you,
Hope it wasn't a mistake,
That your life will be a great one,
I'm sure you'll go far,
Beyond your own weight,
You should reach for the stars,
'cuz the sky is the limit,
Yeah, You're probably not buying it,
But it was worth the try,
You're only someone I used to know,
A once-upon-a-time,
That's me walking out of your life,
And you out of mine,
This. Is. Good-bye.
I'm no longer here.
So. Yeh. Bye.
I saw you yesterday,
It's been several years,
It was awkward,
And amazing,
The memories are now phasing,
Even though we have been apart,
It's like we changed for each others hearts,
You've gained your faith again....
I wonder how you've been.
I'm missing you now,
I'm kissing you in my dreams,
It's been so long it seems,
I want to send a message,
But I'm afraid of any wreckage,
I think about you all the time,
Only wishing that you could be mine,
It didn't then,
So why would it now?
When time is thin?
And the hours bent?
I wonder if you wonder about me?
When you're all alone about to fall asleep,
I hope you know I never left,
I've just stepped back so I could jump off this cliff,
Falling down,
Rising back up,
Maybe it was a little too much,
But I miss your touch,
So, I guess I still care,
And I'm deffinately still here.
By: Cory Britney ©
